Unknown Regrets
Posted by: chellypoof on: October 4, 2008
He said he loves her so much. Promised her he’ll be there during her happy days or even in her sad days. He held her hand. Kissed it. Placed it in his chest with his hand over hers.He showed her the ring.
She smiled. He told her the same words 3 years ago. After a month of knowing him But she never believed him. Why would she? He is known in town to be a player. Someone who passes in your life, get what he wants and leave you empty handed. She met him somewhere. His name is Mike. She can’t remember where or even how. Maybe at a friends party, at a bar or at a wedding. She doesn’t care to remember.
All she knows is that he came along in a time where she struggles in the stages of moving on.There was a time he asked for her heart. Something she can never offer to him. She is a dreamer, someone who has a lot of plans in life. To have another heart break is the last thing in her mind.
It would destroy her focus in life, she thought.She gave him friendship. The most special thing she could offer for awhile.
She gave him trust. Something she could give because he is a friend. She resisted falling for him. It would mean risking her emotions again if he failed to stay in her life.Why? Because she had loved twice. Was hurt twice. Tried to struggle in the healing process, twice. It would be difficult to experience such a risk for the third time.They have been friends for 3 years now.
She works in an advertising firm. He is a lawyer. They see each other often. She never had a lover again after her last heart break. He, on the other hand courted other girls. Got involved with a lot more of girls. Made himself a topic in the town for several times more.She’ll call him whenever she feels alone. He is the first person she talks to, about her job promotion.
She spends several nights in a picnic with him. Just talking. Smiling. Playing guitar and singing. Looking at the starry night. He tells her his problems when it comes to his relationships. He said he loved his girlfriend but after a year or less, she’ll find him with another girl. She gives him advice.
He listens.He treats her the same way she treats him. Casual. Friends.Its been 3 years of suffering from many sleepless nights now. 3 years of betraying her heart.She hugged him tight. Wished him luck. He had been a wonderful friend.Tomorrow is his wedding. Four months to go and he’ll have a baby.If she only gave in to her feelings…. If she only trusted her heart to him…
Would the scene be this way, tonight?
She learned to love him.
It happened, no matter how hard she resisted the feeling. But she never tried to show it. She is afraid of being hurt. But now, the pain seems much stronger… unbearable..He put the ring in his pocket. “I have to marry her”, he said…”So, I could give the child a name.”, he continued.He hugged her.
They bid each other goodbye.
The clock says its 11:39 pm. 39 minutes after he left her. 39 minutes of recalling the happy days since she met him.20 mins. Her cellphone beeped. Beeped. Beeped. Beeped. She didn’t bother to look at the messages for she knew it was from him. It would only hurt her. It will make letting go much harder for her. She turned off her cellphone and placed it in her drawer.His mom came to visit her the next day.
After minutes of cuddling in each others arms, crying, his mom left. Leaving her helpless. Weak. Hurt.Now is the 3rd day after his burial. Car accident at 12 midnight.
The night after he talked to her.She can’t believe he broke his promise. He said he’ll be there for her.Now, he is nothing but a happy memory that makes her ache of grief.She remembered. Took her cellphone out from the drawer. Turned it on.
It says 30 messages.
What could crying do now?
30 messages.–I loved you ever since. It’s your face I saw the when I made love to her. If you could only tell me that you feel the same, its not too late to cancel the wedding. –Mike:11:59 pm.. The message read.
Pens and Lollipops 
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